Ghost of the Past
Understanding the Math - When you have faced abandonment issues in past, and recognize that how easily things can be taken away from you; despite if you have given your heart and soul to it. You would always be afraid to invest in again.
Its extremely difficult to then be carefree and take leap of faith, no matter how much you want to again.
Your subconscious mind will keep warning you with fear of loss, and would not let you materialize your wants into reality again.